Tell the truth to yourself first

I’ve been flicking through my journals and came across this entry from the 2020 lockdown. I thought I would share it because I’m sure I wasn’t the only one feeling like that at the time. Maybe you’re still feeling like this, if you are just know that you are not alone and you aren’t bothering anyone, they are waiting to hear from you. ♥❤

Is it wrong that I have people around but at the same time feel like I have no one to talk to?

How is it even possible to know you have people who care about you but still feel like you have no one to talk to at your lowest points in time because you don’t want to bother them?

I haven’t felt this alone in a while and I’m not even alone. This is now week 11 of me being in lockdown and it’s getting to me. I’m trying my best not to let depression set in, but I’m now fearful that is getting the better of me.

Ever just felt like you want someone to call you just so you don’t feel like you’re bothering them but calling first?

I call to find out how people are doing but aside from my sister no one calls to check in and see how I am doing. Honestly, I’m not sure I’m really okay.

I feel like I am bothering people so I stopped calling, funny thing is they say they are there but they don’t call…

Takeaway after reading this short entry in 2021?

It’s ok not to be ok and to feel alone. Acknowledge it, don’t dismiss your own feelings for the sake of others. Reach out to those around you, or dive headfirst into something that you love. Whatever you do just know that you are not alone.

Signing off for now, until next time sweet cheeks x x